The Sum of My Experience- 3 point shot

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1. The absolute importance of community- it takes a village.. to raise this village idiot. I am independent, hear me roar, oh crap my pitch is off? Thanks for telling me. Without friendship and community I’d be lost in myself with nothing to aspire to and a complete oblivious burden to society. I prefer to be a very conscious burden to society- at least that way I can enjoy it.

2. The importance of a life-long dedication  to growth and increased awareness. Mental Practice-it makes being the biggest douche bag and hypocrite a forgivable offense- or that is my latest theory and excuse…for being a douche bag and a hypocrite.

3. discomfort- an absolute necessity – The discomfort of words and  contradiction of concepts. Comfortably uncomfortable and  understanding of the complicated simplicity life both tickles and torments me. Mastering the art of uncomfort is an absolute must.

These are the elements that most make me grow. My weaknesses often bless me as my strengths do their best to damn me.

Growing up with a poor family life, I have a weakness for home cooked meals and the chefs that make them. I would be hard pressed to withhold information over a great meal and a good wine. Compassion and the thought of a home life are my greatest weakness, in all my barking and tenacity, I melt into a teddy bear when asked anything the right way. So few people take the time to master such soft skills. I love each of my weaknesses as they afford me great friends and opportunities to listen and I often loathe the trouble my personality gets into when relying too heavily on my strengths. Balance in all things and constant dichotomy seem to consume my thoughts. I do not live with regret, only hard earned knowledge, scars and fond memories.

Regret is for those who doubt themselves in the moment. Critical thought and analysis of the past are important tools, regret is useless and often empty expression. It is less than an apology, not quite a sorry- a surface shot and mentality that allows one to escape the responsibility of the moment. -My favorite quote from a Prodigy song- It’s better to regret things you have done than things you haven’t.  A grasshopper once told me it is easier to ask for forgiveness than it is permission. Live for mindfully and forgive often, but don’t ever set yourself up for regret.



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