The following struck a good chord with me:

“The sooner we realize the fall and self-destructive nature of our choices and behaviors, the sooner we feel the floor, and can take comfort that we can’t (or won’t allow ourselves to) fall any lower. From there, looking up and exploring what lead to the great calamity can lead to new insights about ourselves and present situation.”

Reminds me of this song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ebIlAe0Nsnc

I’ve gained a new perspective, even though it’s been like a year and half and the flame still burns sometimes. We all tend to beat ourselves up in our head, OVER and OVER and OVER, for one tiny mistake, even more for big mistakes. Like you ask, “Why bother?”

I am on the side of if you did your best, surrender and let go. If you live life always doing your best, you will innately realize that you cannot control how others respond. Many times, when you hurt another, it is merely one of their scars resurfacing and their perception is that you are attacking – when maybe your intention is to do not harm. Maybe this is my pride still hugging my fire, keeping it smoldering, but if I live my life constantly walking around others’ insecurities, well that doesn’t really leave me room to be myself.

The truth of the matter is that the longer you hold onto the fire and throw more wood on it with self-degrading thoughts, the more true it will become in your everyday. Those opportunities you speak of that went away before you could follow up will dry up the rose garden and you will proceed to speed through it, even if before you had enough brain power to stop the wreck.

In my experience, I am the one that needs to forgive myself in order to move forward, rather than having that validation from the one I harmed. Isn’t seeking that validation mere proof that their needs supersede your own (see paragraph 3 sentence 4). Now, I am not saying be insensitive, but definitely walk your path in life. We are given this beautiful experience, and the challenges we encounter are here for our growth. Self acceptance, I believe, may be one of the hardest challenges.

I propose a new fire, one that guides us at our core, that only causes a burn if we deviate from our paths (or true purpose). My friend Bonnie wrote something on the matter: http://blog.theoptimisticjourney.com/?p=50

I have taken the stance of coming from a place of love in all that I do. Does that mean I need to seek out the fire and try to pour as much water as I have on it? Nope, just going to stay true to myself and hold that person in a place of love, and if that bridge decides to be rebuilt, I will do it with love.

Wishing you the best in luck + love – Jesi Lee

if you don’t want to try online then check out boating stores if there are some in your area.

near me there’s a camping store that has para cord but it’s a local one not a chain store.